this boat.. is rocky.

Who else am I gon' lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone 'till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place there ain't nobody there
Oh, baby baby, we belong together.

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after today.. this blog will be on hiatus until F1 is over. prolly gonna be as busy as a bee. Jam, it's totally nice pouring all my things to you which I've been bottling them for quite a while. remember our date on the 1st. =) julianna plz cheer up no matter what.

bad day.

happy as it seems, my heart just needs to cry out loud.

I just don't feel like quarreling with W.. but he made me to. sigh. my days are so dull, seriously. I had a very bad day today.. I need not elaborate. I SERIOUSLY NEED TO CRY.

hate introducing friends to work.. because if anything goes wrong the fault would be mine. but I trust them alot, so just hope they don't disappoint me =) and sorry for those who cant get in.


dear.. there's so much I wanna tell you. but I know you won't lend a listening ear. sigh.

Chris daughtry.

I look around me
And I want you to be there
Cause I miss the things that we shared
Look around you
It's empty and you're sad
"Don't you miss the love that we had?"

we used to.

Ralph Lauren.

this baby is gonna be mine soon!!
OH MY GOD. haha.

things hasn't been good for both W and I.

thought it would have been better if we could meet lesser cus as days goes by.. we will miss each other even more. but I guess I was wrong. more and more conflicts between us were up. I didn't spare a thought for him thou. after his long tired day at work, I still fought with him over some trivial matters. and I guess I would count myself lucky to have a boyf like him who can tolerate a person like me.

just like ytd, we fought again. his friend, was being a total bullsh*t I tell ya!! he made me got super pissed at him for saying "find a dog to take your bag" to me, because W was being nice to help me with my very heavy bag. I fucking give a hell out of him until he gone totally quiet. than I started to ignore W for keeping quiet and he didn't utter a word even thou his friend was being a fucktard.

than we sorted things out and everything was back on track. I couldn't control my tears when he said I was making a big fuss out of it.. it just sounds like I'm the oe who started this whole shit. ): let bygones be bygones. I still dislike this friend of his anyway!! >:( GROSS!

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I so love this japanese looking kimono tunic from t&k.
I intend to sell it at sgflea. Link here.

but I wore it out to work today. okay maybe might be selling it sometime later. =) work was tired/fun. tml is kallang leisure park grand opening ceremony!! anyone whose going there, drop by to jellybean to say hi! ;)

okay 2 more days and I get to see you, or perhaps tml?
Imu.

start from stretch yo..

(Wed night.)
I met my girls for dinner. to out surprise the Ban Mian coffeeshop is still under renovation -.-" thanks to someone for the info yea. LOL. no choice but we didn't know what to eat so we roam around and decided to settle down for Meiyan's shop. I swear we were full of nonsence the other day. we camwhore, catch up with one another as much as we can.

and yesterday..

I was suppose to go for the meeting at Sentosa Golf Country Club for the F1 meeting with BMW. I did go, but I was asked to go for the 2nd which is at Swiss hotel. so I was stoning at the lobby alone waiting for my cousin and his friend, daphne. anyway he came to fetch we at 6.30am it's crazy, much!! than it was lunchtime and my stomach was growling. we went to bugis to have lunch, oh my god. I forget what's the name of the eatery but the signature dish was FISH SOUP. I shall bring boyf and my girls the next time! of cus I did have my fill! and we didn't go for the 2nd meeting at Swiss. & I wanted to go home after lunch but Daphne and I went town. okay it was super weird at first becus I won't talk mush if I don't know that particular person. haha, so lucky we did talk and yea she's a very nice girl. we went everywhere - FEP, Cine, Heeren, PS. and guess what?

I had my first M18 movie, Step Brother with my cousin and his friends. ^^ the show is damn fucking funny must go and watch, if you're 18!!

all of them were in their early twenties then. so before movie we lepak at Starbucks to wait for the rest of them including cousin in law. than had thai express for dinner. I would only order Soft shell crab black pepper glass noodle!! shiok like hell. the time the movie ended was already 11 plus and cousin fetched me home after. YAY, I get to know that for the formula 1, I will get to see the drivers. Daphne saw their picture during briefing she said some of them were damn cute. and it won't be easy working for BMW!! moreover we will get to see the race from 60th storey! cool or cool huh? :)

on the other hand, this is my first time for not meeting breadboy this long, 5th day ): I hope everything's well on his side.. plz drink lotsa water k. luv you long time.

I MISS YOU BREADBOYYYYY!!!!! ))):

ps: I can't believe that I typed this whole chunk of words in the morning. OMG.

I miss you.

I miss those time spent happily together.
I miss you making funny faces.
I miss everything including, us.

Aishiteru.

hello, almost dead by now. but am going to keep myself damn damn occuppied by finding another part time job, since breadboy has no time for me & I have no money for shopping. going for an interview later with Jo. I just don't feel like staying at home.

mind the previous post. I think I got drifted away after settling some unpleasant stuffs.
11 days to 2nd!

I am emo nemo.

I feel damn sad like an asshole earlier in the evening. I've got a feeling we can't last. I just got no confidence at all! not anymore? Idk why either lah fuck.

Pimples.

look at my brother dammit! anyway that picture was taken 2days back.

first things first,I really really loathe pimples. I photoshopped all the pictures in this post to hide my pimples.

okay, so I went to the boyfriend's and that lazy bum was reluctant to get up from bed even when I tried tickling him many many times. I got so bored and decided to stone for sometime before I join him for a nap. at times, I think he should really really be honoured because a girl like me, would never do house chores/work. miraculously, I vacuumed his entire room. I feel accomplished yes?(for helping him vacuum the place). after which we had kfc for late lunch I was straving I swear. haha. after that we went back to his place than I started camwhoring because he was totally ignoring me.

then he knew what I was doing, he tried to spoil the picture!

bought candles and met the rest for latern festival except that we do not have mooncakes and lanterns, only candles. =x okay so thats about all I think! yay, jo is on her way here, to my hse. we gonna bake cookies yo.

I miss you ):

'Love is like flying a kite, you must learn when to loosen it and when to pull it back.'

I think it's kinda true yes?
oh well. I could only see him tomorrow. than he'll be starting his work nxx monday, means lesser time with him. aww.

I need to get over it soon. boring holidays! ):
I miss you badly, breadboy.

hello, I need money!

You're the remedy I'm searching hard to find
To fix the puzzle that i see inside
Painting all my dreams the colors of your smile
When i find you it will be alright...
I need to try to get where you are

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this week wasn't very much productive. thou it was self-declared holiday, I didnt meet the boyfriend everyday. so yesterday I finally had my fringe trimed. YAY I think other than online shopping, I would spent quite a sum of money on my hair.

after that met besty and we went over to her workplace at Untied Square and back to jurong(her bf's hse.) waited for the boyfriend and headed to town. I bought sandals, it was love at first sight. then I saw a black oxford. but it wasn't as pretty as the brown one. I WANT A PAIR OF BROWN OXFORD CAN! wooooo! I gonna sell my stuff soon, very soon I swear. my wardbrode is exploding any moment. ):

ain't going to see the boyfriend until Sunday I think. he wants to make me miss him more. LOL!!! & last thing is I find that people are hard to trust, yes?

Back at one.

Tags Replies:

Qoo breadboy - haha, me won't screw up my own hair! I swear. :)
J'amie & Ting - I wanna cut bang bang! weee.
Min - yea, I'll send you when you're online.
Jas - YES totally agree :)
Ting - dear girl me so saddiesx too leh, but we can't do anything. $10/hr GONE!!!

went for the f1 briefing which actually turns out to be an interview with BMW heads. woo, it was a total unprepared session siol. we didnt get in anyway. so much for dressing from head to toe, I even chose a nice black satin top to the "interview" and speaking of which, my black heels which has been kept in the shoe rack has finally had its chance to see the beautiful world today. lmao, leaving me with aches.

disappointed goes to the pay of 10bucks per hour! ): but, it was a good experience for us thou.

okay I declare my school holiday starts tomorrow! I don't wanna go school already. HAHAHAHA. & last thing is, I haven't recover from my flu and throat. it's been 4 effing days alr OMG.

w, whatever decisions you'll be making (be it quiting or continue school) I'll always stand by you and hope you won't regret in whichever decision. ;)

love you most, me(your breadgirl) hahahahahah! inside joke*

where you're, is where I wanna be.

Tags Replies:

Zam - haha, yea. come schol often okay! =)
Jas - OKAY! nect time I take pictures of it! hees.
Qiin - hey! thanks, Ive linked you back.
Ting - yeap, Jamie used this before. hahah. I had to change cus the previous one was screwed!

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(picture taken a few days back)

So I caught 'Make It Happen' today at cine with breadboy. =) then headed back to school becus breadboy has to see his teacher for his hairdo, totally spoils our day out tgt! ): so me accompanied him back okay! I waited quite awhile for him. while waiting I was so occupied with my crossword puzzle book.

then it was kfc for dinner at bedok before heading back home. yea, thou it was a short short time with him it was damn sweet. =) I love you, breadboy! teeheee.

p.s ANYONE WANTS TO WORK FOR F1?!?! I'm looking for two girls. plz email me if INTERESTED! ju_ki90@hotmail.com!!!!

p.s.s I need a haircut (for my fringe) real badly kay! Sobz.

Fall for you.

Tags Replies:

Ting - Yea, ban mian on the 15th! haha.
J'amie - Wee, working with you later I cannot wait yo.
JaqJaq - haha, linked ya!
Xiong - LOL, wah advertised your hse kopitiam @ my blogggggg! LOL
Jocelyn - hahah, SPAMMER siol you.
Belbel - hee ok! I'll link you later :)

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So yesterday was class BBQ, kinda disappointed cus most of them paid for the money but didn't come =/ there was of cus some left over food. and around 8 plus, it started to pour heavily. poor us, have to stop bbq-ing and started running to the nearest shelter with the food in our hands.

under the shelter, we realized we left 50 over uncook otah at the pit, total waste! haha, the food was overall awesome, esp the chicken wing(I had many many of them, teehee).

when the rain was smaller we all ran towards downtown east. & there's a little girl that Miss Gan brought with to the bbq was soooooo adorable. she was quiet thou, througout. than we tried to talked to her and maybe she was afraid of stranger, she didn't replied any of us.

headed over to the boyfriend's place then. just had a packet of Calbee(hot & spicy) favour. heading to work later! =)

BYE <3!

Sigh.

How can I mend this big hole?
I feel like crying out, but thats not the solution to it. sigh, If I could ever rewind the time, I'll never say those things ever again.

I felt a pinch in my heart.
a feeling which makes my heart sour whenever we couldn't get along.
a feeling not everyone can feel.

this feeling is so strong.


How we are becoming, be it to a good start or a bad ending,
I'll always (L) you.

Looking for that magic rainbow.

Tags Replies:

Baizura - lol, you're the pretty one, not me! :)
Jamie - haha, it's still earlyyyyy, lucky didnt overslept today! =/
Jaq - hi! your link please?
Khais - haha! thkq :)
Xiong - zZzz. we didn't know it was renovating omg the bian mian so nice lor.

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Interior drawing exam today, wasn't really prepared for it thou. it was 3 freaking hours and there was simply no time to stone! I kept my cool, and continue to concentrate on what I'm doing even thou some people can't keep their mouth shut!

&

the outcome of my exam is:

I know, it's not properly done. but I've tried my best? the colour combi sucks I know. haha whatever.

We live and we learn
To take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly, or falling in love

TOOTHACHE.

Tags Replies:

Cuiyun - okaayyy!! I gonna relink you now. :)
Chiharu - haha, dint know also. my friend said you've to copy the bckgrd link under 'body }'. and you can find nice skins at photobucket.com! I always find from there!! :)
Xiong - today me no school lor, not pon!

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Me love my new bagpack, it's pretty vintage. haha and I brought it out with me today and matched it with my gladiator sandals. it makes me feel so kiddy but I like. haha! and caught movie again, this time it was Death Race! it freaking gross but nice, me like alot! teeheee. and we walked towards heeren. outside heeren there's a tent selling Young Hearts so cheaply. haha, so the typical me grab besty along to buy with me hahaha! SO CHEAP WHY DON'T BUY! overall I've bought 5 for myself.

we then headed back to tpy to meet up with the girls (plus the guys). Initial plan was to have Ban mian & lime juice. but we didnt know the coffeeshop closed down so soon! so disappointing please!! ): so in the end we had dinner at another air-conditioned coffee shop. after dinner met derek & jiawei at the control station before buying bbq stuffs for this saturday at fairprice. headed home after that which was pretty early.

that's all for now. :)))))))!
I NEED HELP!

You're like a dream come true.

Tags replies:

Peiyi - thanks! miss you too. :)
Juju - haa, play play only. hahah MEET UP SOON YEA.
Xiong - zZzz, must you flood my tag?! lol.
Chiharu - Hello, oooo I really miss your jokes! doing fine? :)
J'amie - LOL, it wont hurts but plz be careful as in take good care of it for the first week!
MIANBAOCHAOREN - haha, don't eeeee leh. <3!


the 4 four us finally met each other again after like donkey years ago. needless to say, the day was AWWWWSUM hahahaha! thou during the day those guys were reluctant to get out of the house until 3plus? kinda pissed but yea, everything went well after we met them. =)

oh, & browsing thru stores and stores at FEP, I totally wasted money on my new colourful necklace (DAMN CHIO, i like it alot). Jam had her tragus pierce like ouch, be careful ok!! don't eat seafood.

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OVERDUE'S:



& double date @ Sakae Sushi (sunday):




OKAY, done uploading pictures. many many more, but lazy to upload the rest.

on a lighter note, this week I've met W so many many times, v.happy of cus. when oct comes, it'll be lesser time spent with him, due to work and projects perhaps?

One - you're like a dream come true
Two - just wanna be with you
Three - Girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me
Four - repeat steps one through three
Five - make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one...yeah...

Back at one - Brian McKnight.